deepest me

hey buddies.

sape yang tau, tau la about what do i felt about my friends. i do mad. i do upset. but currently, as i told to one of my blog buddy here, upset tu lebey banyak dari mad. marah tu tetap marah. but things happened. kite takleh nak turn back time.

and dgn rasa rendah hati, dgn rasa setulus hati, saya mau wat confession.

i miss them so much. i was so alone. and i can feel the emptyness inside my heart. for the past few days, i rasa mcm something is missing. one of them did sms me. i dunno whether to reply or not and as the day move on, i just let the reply sms masuk dalam draft sms.i dun expect them to ask for apologize. because saya dah maapkan. cuma saya tatau kenapa things wont be the same again.

mcm siang tadi. i met one of them kat faculty. she said hi to me. and i replied it too. but itu saje. the conversation ended just like that. maybe i tatau nak ckp ape. and probably dia pun tatau mau cakap ape. (i guess so). i wish we could be like before again. but i tanak jadi mcm dulu bila saya tak dihargai. bukan kat sini maksud mereka tak hargai cuma mungkin antara kami ni dah slalu gunakan perkataan tak apa. or maybe amik mudah dgn sume bende even pasal perasaan kawan2. sume nye easy way. no long way.

i know one of them will read this. i just want her to know. its not about berapa marahnya pada korang. tapi cuma wondering sape aku pada korang semua. i know we dont talk a lot about ur new relationship. but it doesnt mean that i tanak tau. itu saja.